Before I was born, my biological father left my mom to be with another woman. I have faced rejection all of my life, and never realized it. The way I felt just seemed so normal. As I got older, I began to pursue relationships in high school. Every relationship I was in fell apart after 2 years. I never really understood why, I just let it be and accepted it. During encounter weekend, God really opened my eyes to the bigger picture. He said “it’s not a boyfriend you were looking for; it was a father you were looking for.” Not knowing I faced rejection every day of my life, I was looking for love in all the wrong places. I was turning myself into somebody I wasn’t, and doing things that didn’t define me as a person. All I wanted was for somebody to spend time with me, and tell me I’m beautiful. I wanted to be someone’s Princess. I never wanted a boy to do things for me, or buy me anything. I’ve always felt as if materialistic things couldn’t fill that empty hole in my heart. I just wanted to be loved and cherished. I wanted someone to be proud of me, and lift me up in times of need. I use to get so mad and angry, because my boyfriends just didn’t understand no matter how many times I explained it. I feel so bad now, because it wasn’t their job to love me like a father. I have pushed God away for so long looking for that special love when it has been at my fingertips all the days of my life. I could have felt like a Princess this whole time, but was too stubborn to just listen to the voice of God. If I would have been obedient, I wouldn’t have been so hurt. I have made the decision to forgive my biological father for leaving me. I don’t need him. I can always count on my heavenly Father to provide for me in all circumstances, whether big or small.